Oh, hello there

It's been a while, no? Yeah I have been busy and not so busy. Everyday something runs through my mind to write but never bother. But things are good, I was very down yesterday as I let my emotions get the better of me. Thankfully I got a phone call and that cheered me up big time, and even more phone calls today which made me even happier.

I finally decided to check out that skate park and Albany Park, and well to say the least it's pretty sick. It's small, but it's dead all day, though you get a lot of dickhead over there, so I'm waiting for the day I get started on or even jacked. I have only taken my phone down there once out of three sessions there, oh yeah I got a new phone. iPhone G3 (8GB) and it's so sick, best phone I have had, though my N95 is close behind.

With that said, I have been skating a fair bit, would have skated today but it rained almost all day. I have been learning ramp, finally... I learnt two new tricks the other day, rock and roll and 50-50. It's all pretty scary as I have fallen over a fair bit coming down the ramps, but I was surprised at myself how I got over my fear, well mostly, and just got back up and gave it another go.

I have decided to up my hours at work, but with our store not making masses over money at the moment I am forced to work in another store, my old managers store, in Angel. It's two floors and the busiest in the district, North London. This coming week I'm working three days at this store, early morning starts, 7.30am, which is long as I have to leave my house at around 6.15am. I am trying not to think, oh it will be stressful or boring, just get the money you need over summer and deal with it.

I haven't been buying much recently, trying to save where I can. But the things I have been buying is manga, by early next week I should have the complete Evangelion and Death Note series. I was reading Death Note first, but have swapped to Evangelion, which i am thoroughly enjoying, always loved how complex the story was.

Ok, I need to call Michelle about tomorrow, wonder what we will do. I want to do something decent, but don't want to go on a mission anywhere as the weather is set to be rubbish and the spending of money really isn't on my mind.

Lots...

... have been happening recently, but this song sums it up well. It's got it's happy points and it's low points.

I don't know if I can really write the events of the past week or so, it's been good and it's also been bad. like I said this songs sums it up well.

Today

...has been very boring. I really wanted to do something today, with Michelle. Sadly I have a mountain of work to do, some of which has been done, but I still have a lot to do by the 7th May. I can say that this week will be seriously eye opening, to both my lack of dedication and the harsh words/ unsaid feelings which will be present both tomorrow and Thursday. I have to stay cool, not take it to heart and don't battle with my tutors, fellow students and especially, myself.

Tonight I should really write up my evaluation for tomorrows lessons, but I really can't be fucked, but I have to, even though the call of Bioshock is ever present. I also need to start my dissertation proposal which has to be handed in tomorrow, I will email it to her when I get in from the crit, maybe write a rough on in the crit whilst finishing off my sketch book.

I have been told by Michelle that I go on about myself, and yes I do, to her. Stine called today and we, well she talked and I 'ummmd' at what she was saying. I do enjoy speaking to her, but she does go on about herself a lot. I said about two things during the whole conversation and even then I had to butt in to say those things. Least I know how Michelle feels.

A week today I have an appointment for the passport office, £114 for one day. The only reason I did that is because of, well yeah. I kind of regret it after today, I feel me being pushed into the 'Friend Zone', so I feel it's time to take a moment and think. At the moment that's the last thing on my mind. The possibility of going away with her summer would be nice, though I think as soon as I get myself (head) sorted those plans will soon fizzle out, due to me being the Mayor of Friend Zone, amongst other things. Boring!

My costume should be arriving on Wednesday, fingers crossed! Ok I am going to jazz out and get on with this evaluation, and possibly the dissertation proposal.